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On Monday July 24th I had a colonoscopy.  Wondering about the damage possibly done by the last flare. Having the resources of Homeopathy, biofeedback and natural remedies has been a saving grace for me. This trip was somewhat overwhelming for me. The appointment was in Hinton which is close to where I use to live but a two hour drive to the hospital from where I’m staying now. I had to ask for a ride so my older daughter was out a days pay but I was luck as my younger daughter actually had that day off so she came along too. It was wonderful to have double support. On our way out of Edson the tire popped on a dip in the road. It’s a good thing I didn’t have to do anything, I was pretty much useless.  Changed the tire to the spare with the help of a guy.  We couldn’t believe that there are actually people who are willing to help.  And another guy stopped and asked if we were okay.  That blew our minds too.  There still are a few people out there who are considerate and have respect for others.

The colonoscopy results showed NORMAL! NO DAMAGE, NO SCARING, NO CANCER!

Ironically, having the procedure triggered inflammation in the colon, so Colitis symptoms returned. Three days later I had a Homeopathic appointment and immediately it was under control.  Within a couple of weeks will diminish and in a month it should be completely gone.  No flare!

In all this illness I’ve learned a great deal in many areas of my life. But SELF CARE is definitely the most important lesson learned which I have made a daily practice. This does not come easily to me. When we have something going on it is so easy to get out of balance. Once we loose our footing for whatever reason, it can be extremely hard to get back on track. And so the momentum is lost and it’s easier to keep the unbalance going than it is to correct. It is such a time consuming struggle!

“And—please hear me loud and clear on this last one—self care is always the right choice.” ~UmberDove

I have put a few things in place that help me reset quickly so I don’t trip myself up leading to illness again or waste more time on finding my way back to a balanced life.

Natural Remedies – VC 15 Forte (Once the imbalance begins I take two of these shots, and by that I mean two viles of liquid down the hatch on two consecutive days), & AdrenaSmart. These are only used to keep my balance. I stop taking them until I find I am unbalanced again then will use for a short time until I feel I have come back to center.

Meditation – Extremely helpful to stop the negative thoughts that like to pop up when the imbalance begins and it’s so easy to stay there in that place while I beat myself up, feel fear, anger, resentment. After all if it’s been a life long habit, it is so much easier to stay STUCK! I find it a great relief to feel the guidance I get from this simple practice. Gabriel Bernstein is my favourite. Her voice and music used is soothing and the recorded meditations she has on her website are in perfect tandem to the thought process and the relaxing time needed. I also read, reread and use her books (#spiritjunkie). The Universe Has Your Back is EXCELLENT!

Walking – “When you get caught up in your head, move your feet.” ~Kelly Clark. Walking is a great way to get out of your head. It flows, it’s meditative. But it’s also a way to explore, see new places, find new pieces of the outdoors. Exploring in nature has always been my peace, the deeper into the bush the better.

Sleep – I lack in restorative sleep because I have Fibromyalgia, which stops me from reaching REM sleep. For this AdrenaSmart is a savior. It also helps with stress.  Who doesn’t have stress in their lives that they need to manage?

If you noticed food is not listed. That is because I have such a routine in this department that imbalance only happens if the above list gets really out of control (which hasn’t occurred in some time). Whole30 and Against All Grain Cookbooks keep my on track in the grocery stores and kitchen!

A new, or should I say a revisited item on my list, is art in all forms. I am drawing, writing more, colouring, painting, collecting, sketchbooking, observing so hard that I get lost in the realms of the forms of art in front of me. I love that feeling! It’s such a natural place for me to be.

“I am an internal processor; this I’ve come to recognize in the ebb and flow of sharing and silence.” ~UmberDove

I’ve done the surviving…now on to THRIVING! I am excited to see what my future holds. I know I am not finished with Crohns and Colitis but I am going to live…I am going to live hard, fast, free and wild! Doing exactly what I want to do. Being free! Live without abandon, set no limits, just being free! What I feel is my calling. The path I am here to lead. The changes I am suppose to make. The new world I am part of starting. I know my purpose now and I thank illness for taking away my old life and making me new, forcing me through all the horrific pain, debilitating defeat, chronic change, that has brought me to this place.

This place of peace. This place of renewed hope and strength. I have learned self-compassion, self-acceptance and self-forgiveness. This self awareness has taken me deep into a world of love. Loving what is. Love instead of fear. Pure Love!

You see, this illness brought me to my knees but I rose up and greeted it with full on determination, will, fight and GRACE!  I am fearless! Always have been, always will be. I am strong in mind, body and soul. For all of this I am grateful. I have shed some layers of that which no longer serves, and I am leaning hard into the rawness of my own authenticity.

Peace, Love & Light

~Andrea

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01/16/15 – 01/16/17

January 16th….Today is a big day for me! It marks two years since I started this amazing Homeopathy and Biofeedback healing, recovery and finding my authentic self journey. I am so grateful I found Phyllis my homeopath who saved my life.

You can not imagine the relief I felt two years ago when I walked out of Natural Remedies the Homeopathic Office in the town I lived in, knowing that I had hope, a future, someone who knew how to help me regain my health and finally a diagnosis. I finally knew what was wrong with me, what I had been dealing with since I was 9 years old.  It had a name, I had words that would lead me to research and find ways I could make my life easier and manage these diseases.

It had crossed my mind to go to a homeopath but I probably wouldn’t have if it wasn’t for a coworker at my last job who’s son had gone through an incredibly scary time just before I started working there and was also saved by Phyllis, homeopathy and biofeedback. Listening to her tell his story and how she struggled to find her son help, along with how biofeedback and holistic remedies helped him, convinced me that this was what I needed since western medicine nor doctors were unable to help me either.

I am grateful for Kathy and Phyllis who came into my life at just the right time!

On January 12th and 13th last week I felt a huge difference in my thinking ability, processing, and clarity.  Crohns symptoms, energy and overall general health had improved a significant amount over night.  It’s so great….I feel like I’m getting back into functioning normally, I’m so darn close!

I am so grateful for every step I’ve experienced over the past years from fighting for my life to getting my life back.

Now that I know my diagnosis I’ve been able to learn how to manage and handle these diseases so that I don’t repeat my mistakes from the past.  I can’t guarantee that I will never have another flare but I can say with certainty I will never be this sick for this long again.  A usual flare lasts a couple of weeks or months not years when treated with change in diet, holistic remedies, homeopathy and biofeedback.

With proper treatment, allowing the GI track to heal on it’s own and taking holistic remedies a Crohns and Colitis flare can be managed easily. The severity of the flare is the only measure in that it will take as long as the body needs to heal from the damage of the flare.

Check out the rest of my blog posts to see my journey from being incredibly imbalanced and sick from anemia, being malnourished, crohns and colits flares to remission and recovery.

[EDIT] I want to add that I am not in any way against western medicine or doctors. I could make a long list of the people and ways western medicine and doctors have saved lives just in my family not including people I know or have heard about. The theme throughout my blog is that they weren’t for me, this time, for these diseases. 

This is an incredible post to read about Crohns disease

Peace ~Andrea

 

Finding opportunity in adversity

When adversity hits it is hard to know how you will react, how you will handle the situation or what you will do with what is in front of you.  No one  is ever prepared! I believe that everything happens for a reason. There is a purpose in all situations, people and life stuggles each person encounters to learn from and to change.

Some people ignore the signs, others realize that there is more to the adversity than the circumstance.  They acknowledge that there is a purpose and take action by learning from and changing to become a better person.  Finding opportunity in what has been handed to you can be hard but it can also be very liberating.

For me having no control over my body or my life was scary, it was a huge blow to my perfectionism, my type A personality and to my ego.  It woke me up and made me realize I was unhappy in the relationship I was in so, I changed that. I had people in my life that I didn’t want around me because they brought me down and sucked all my good energy so, I changed that. As I discarded these negative aspects from my life I could see that there were so many other aspects of my life I hated so, I changed those things too!

In time I changed. I became who I was always suppose to be. I learned about what I like and don’t like, what type of people I want to surround myself with.  What type of job, career and business I want have and what direction I want my life to go.  In adversity I chose to learn and change!  I’m well on my way and it feels great.

In the process of healing I searched and researched to help me in my healing process and that brought me to having an interest in holistic health.  It came naturally to me so I continued absorbing knowledge from all sources which lead me to realize I wanted to educate others and help individuals heal in a natural, graceful and peaceful way just like I have done over the last twenty two months.

My adversity eventually took me to a good place, unfortunately I had to suffer a great deal and struggle more than I would like but it brought me to this place of peace, happiness and contentment.  I’m so excited to start the Homeopathic Practioner courses next month and I can’t wait to see what else the future will bring.

Hope, peace and love ~ Andrea

 

 

Finding your place after illness

In 21 months I ended a 3 year toxic relationship, removed people out of my life that were negative, quit my job, relocated, and moved into a new home.  I have been searching for a new job, getting ready to go back to school and I am in the process of opening a tree farm business.  All of these are all on the go, in motion, and going to happen….stay tuned!!

I shouldn’t forget to mention adapted to living a different lifestyle, learned more about myself than I thought possible, healed crohns and colitis, and many other ailments, recovering and working hard getting back on my feet so I can start living a normal life again.

Rebuilding a life after illness is not an easy task! Staying balanced so that I don’t have a set back is complex. I have to stay centered, routine can’t faulter, planning and scheduling is important to keep my life in balance while many aspects are changing.

The Huffington Post: How to repair your life after a flare-up 

I’m starting all over again….again! It takes hard work, perseverance, persistence, positive attitude, determination, and I did it all on my own. In the healing process my homeopathic practitioner has been a great help in many ways for that one hour each month that goes above and beyond what she offers in her practice.  I keep her words with me until the next visit which gets me through more times than I can count.  Each visit has been transforming, learning, laughing, relaxing and becoming friends.

Finding your place after illness has one major aspect that screams at you repeatedly and that is to take it one step at a time. I keep saying to myself slow and steady. It’s so much more than getting back into a life. It’s getting your physical body back on track, building muscle, stamina, getting back into a routine.  None of which just happens it’s a struggle, it’s hard work and because I am not fully recovered yet I don’t have the energy to muster most days of the week to accomplish much but I try as hard as I can to check something off my list each day.

Living with chronical illness – Chris Kresser

The hardest time was when I was not seeing any results but once I could see measurable progression I had something tangible to hold on to and that has carried me through and has given me hope. The struggle is real, it’s concrete, but in small steps it’s manageable and in time doable. I can’t believe how long it has taken me to get this far. I have to admit I’m working at this through what they call brain fog, a bit of a haze but I’m going to get there and that moment my life shifts, look out world, you haven’t seen anything yet!

As you find your place back in your life it will be a different life, your old life will not suit your new life. Severe illness changes a person, you will find your interests and priorities change, you will look back and see that most of your past you were running on autopilot, that you were making life decisions based on other people and that you didn’t know what was important to you until  you found yourself not in control.

The ones closest to me will notice a change in me and the way I live my life, my transformation is noticeable, and it was necessary but I am still unsure why and for what purpose I had to go through all this, although I’m sure I will figure it out soon.  In some ways I feel it happened for a reason….maybe even a number of reasons.

I feel for everyone who has to start over and find their place in this big old world after any kind of illness, I know what you are going through and I wish you luck, patients, health and happiness. Find the building blocks that you need to make finding your place back in the real world a graceful and beautiful success! Keep going! You got this!

What building block(s) do you use to help find your place after illess?

Peace, hope & love ~Andrea