On Monday July 24th I had a colonoscopy. Wondering about the damage possibly done by the last flare. Having the resources of Homeopathy, biofeedback and natural remedies has been a saving grace for me. This trip was somewhat overwhelming for me. The appointment was in Hinton which is close to where I use to live but a two hour drive to the hospital from where I’m staying now. I had to ask for a ride so my older daughter was out a days pay but I was luck as my younger daughter actually had that day off so she came along too. It was wonderful to have double support. On our way out of Edson the tire popped on a dip in the road. It’s a good thing I didn’t have to do anything, I was pretty much useless. Changed the tire to the spare with the help of a guy. We couldn’t believe that there are actually people who are willing to help. And another guy stopped and asked if we were okay. That blew our minds too. There still are a few people out there who are considerate and have respect for others.
The colonoscopy results showed NORMAL! NO DAMAGE, NO SCARING, NO CANCER!
Ironically, having the procedure triggered inflammation in the colon, so Colitis symptoms returned. Three days later I had a Homeopathic appointment and immediately it was under control. Within a couple of weeks will diminish and in a month it should be completely gone. No flare!
In all this illness I’ve learned a great deal in many areas of my life. But SELF CARE is definitely the most important lesson learned which I have made a daily practice. This does not come easily to me. When we have something going on it is so easy to get out of balance. Once we loose our footing for whatever reason, it can be extremely hard to get back on track. And so the momentum is lost and it’s easier to keep the unbalance going than it is to correct. It is such a time consuming struggle!
“And—please hear me loud and clear on this last one—self care is always the right choice.” ~UmberDove
I have put a few things in place that help me reset quickly so I don’t trip myself up leading to illness again or waste more time on finding my way back to a balanced life.
Natural Remedies – VC 15 Forte (Once the imbalance begins I take two of these shots, and by that I mean two viles of liquid down the hatch on two consecutive days), & AdrenaSmart. These are only used to keep my balance. I stop taking them until I find I am unbalanced again then will use for a short time until I feel I have come back to center.
Meditation – Extremely helpful to stop the negative thoughts that like to pop up when the imbalance begins and it’s so easy to stay there in that place while I beat myself up, feel fear, anger, resentment. After all if it’s been a life long habit, it is so much easier to stay STUCK! I find it a great relief to feel the guidance I get from this simple practice. Gabriel Bernstein is my favourite. Her voice and music used is soothing and the recorded meditations she has on her website are in perfect tandem to the thought process and the relaxing time needed. I also read, reread and use her books (#spiritjunkie). The Universe Has Your Back is EXCELLENT!
Walking – “When you get caught up in your head, move your feet.” ~Kelly Clark. Walking is a great way to get out of your head. It flows, it’s meditative. But it’s also a way to explore, see new places, find new pieces of the outdoors. Exploring in nature has always been my peace, the deeper into the bush the better.
Sleep – I lack in restorative sleep because I have Fibromyalgia, which stops me from reaching REM sleep. For this AdrenaSmart is a savior. It also helps with stress. Who doesn’t have stress in their lives that they need to manage?
If you noticed food is not listed. That is because I have such a routine in this department that imbalance only happens if the above list gets really out of control (which hasn’t occurred in some time). Whole30 and Against All Grain Cookbooks keep my on track in the grocery stores and kitchen!
A new, or should I say a revisited item on my list, is art in all forms. I am drawing, writing more, colouring, painting, collecting, sketchbooking, observing so hard that I get lost in the realms of the forms of art in front of me. I love that feeling! It’s such a natural place for me to be.
“I am an internal processor; this I’ve come to recognize in the ebb and flow of sharing and silence.” ~UmberDove
I’ve done the surviving…now on to THRIVING! I am excited to see what my future holds. I know I am not finished with Crohns and Colitis but I am going to live…I am going to live hard, fast, free and wild! Doing exactly what I want to do. Being free! Live without abandon, set no limits, just being free! What I feel is my calling. The path I am here to lead. The changes I am suppose to make. The new world I am part of starting. I know my purpose now and I thank illness for taking away my old life and making me new, forcing me through all the horrific pain, debilitating defeat, chronic change, that has brought me to this place.
This place of peace. This place of renewed hope and strength. I have learned self-compassion, self-acceptance and self-forgiveness. This self awareness has taken me deep into a world of love. Loving what is. Love instead of fear. Pure Love!
You see, this illness brought me to my knees but I rose up and greeted it with full on determination, will, fight and GRACE! I am fearless! Always have been, always will be. I am strong in mind, body and soul. For all of this I am grateful. I have shed some layers of that which no longer serves, and I am leaning hard into the rawness of my own authenticity.
Peace, Love & Light